I'm Such A Slacker...

Sorry about slacking on this blog lately. I've been kinda busy with my other blogs and some other stuff. But anyway, lets go back to last Thursday and work our way to the present, shall we?

So last Thursday Kody and I got in a HUGE fight! It was probably one of the biggest we've had, and the worst we've had here in the last few weeks that we've been fighting. I don't really want to go into details, but my temper got out of control and he got really mad at me. After I woke up from a two hour nap, that was meant to cool me off, I came out to the living room and he was writing something on his note pad. It turns out it was a letter to me. He wrote it and then told me he was leaving for a couple hours because he needed to get away from me. I was pretty upset because every other time we have a fight we always just talk it out and we are all better. I tried to stop him from going, but no prevail. Finally, I just let him go, thinking that would be the best. I couldn't stop crying, though. And to top it all off, he was almost an hour late coming home. But we finally sorted out our problems and we've been pretty much perfect ever since.

The next day we were to head home, to my parent's, because I had a family reunion to go to. Friday my best friend, Chelsey wanted me to go to the club with her, so Kody just stayed home and hung out with our friend, John. I ended up going to the club with Chelsey, my sister, Ashlee, and her friend. Our original plan was to go to this dance club but we got there and NOBODY was there. So I said "let's go to the gay bar," so we did. And we had so much fun.

Saturday was my family reunion, and it was the first time Kody went to one of my family functions, besides the holidays. It was an alright time, I mean who really has fun at a family reunion. Afterwards we went to Hobby Lobby so I could get some things for my jewlery. I ended up making a bracelet and starting on a pair of earrings. That night we watched Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix because I haven't seen it since it was in theaters, two years ago.

Sunday my grandma took us and my cousins to see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, since I hadn't seen it yet. I was waiting to see it with her so since I was home I figured it would be a good time to see it. And it was amzing, like they all are. Harry Potter never disappoints. After finishing up the earrings I started and finishing up a necklace, because my grandma said she will try and sell my stuff at this garage sale, we headed on back to school.

The last couple of days, nothing much has gone on with me...until today. Today has been a pretty bad day. First I waterlogged my Blackberry, but I got it working again after just blowing it out for about an hour or two. After fixing that problem, my scroll ball fell apart, so I couldn't actually do anything on my phone but listen to music. So since I had music, I walked to campus to go to the financial aid office, but happened to forget my tax forms, so I pretty much walked there for nothing. Thank goodness, Kody was able to fix my scroll ball. The ring around it just needs glued in place because it has lost almost all of its prongs.

Well, I hope you have had a good week, so far.

Going Home This Weekend

I hope everyone's been having a good week. Mine has actually been pretty good. My depressive state is going away and I haven't had a breakdown this week, so that's good. There has been no fighting with boyfriend since last Friday, so thats wonderful.

This weekend, we are going home because I have a family reunion to go to. Last year I was unable to go because I had just moved back to school and didn't have the money to come home for it. And this will be the first time Kody will meet my extended family. He's already met my grandma and my aunts uncles and cousins, but nobody other than that. My family is kinda crazy but I'm excited for him to meet them.

Speaking of family, Kody got a call from his grandma yesterday saying his grandpa wasn't doing well and he was in the ICU at the hospital. I really hope he pulls through this. I lost my grandpa when I was in 4th grade and Im not that close to my other grandpa, so his grandpa is like another grandpa to me. I hope we have time to go visit him while we are home.

I'm also really excited to go see Harry Potter on Sunday. I haven't seen it yet because every time a new movie comes out I have always gone with my grandma and I don't want to break that tradition just because I'm living away from home now. First I have to rent the last one because for some reason I haven't seen it in two years, since I seen that one in theaters.

I hope I have a good weekend. I think that its going to be pretty eventful. And going home always makes me feel better.

Before I go I want to let you guys know about the newest blog I started. Its a One Tree Hill fan blog that I started on wordpress. I am a die hard and One Tree Hill fan and I've been wanting to start this site for awhile, so here it is. If your a OTH fan I highly recommend you check it out! I'm so excited about it, and I think you'll love it.

The link is http://thegamesthatplayus.wordpress.com

Well, have a good weekend :)

I'm Starting to Feel Better :)

Me, Porcha, and Eden

I didn't take any pictures from my friend's Porcha's birthday out at the club, but my friend Jackie took a few before we left, and I love this picture. This was about a week and a half ago, when I was first starting to feel depressed. I love this picture because I look so happy, which I was happy because I love girl's nights, and just having some fun without Boyfriend. I mean, I love spending time with Kody, but sometimes we need to go out without each other, but its hard, since we hang out with all the same people.

This weekend, though, Kody and I had another fight, on Friday night. Everything was going so well until I caught him outside, smoking. He quit smoking months ago, after he found out his grandma had lung cancer. His mother is also at risk of getting throat cancer because she smokes so much. I was so proud of him for quitting because the earlier you quit smoking the less risk you have of getting cancer. He is only 20 so he hasn't been smoking for not even close to as long as his mother, or what his grandma did. She quit smoking 11 years ago.

But anyway, I caught him outside smoking, when I thought he only took hits occasionally from people at work. He told me he did that, but he would never buy a pack again. So I asked him where he got it from and he told me he bought his own pack. Thats what upset me the most because he told me he wouldn't do that. But he told me he got the pack like 2 or three weeks ago and has only smoke a few from it since then. In my mind, at least he isn't smoking on a regular basis, and he isn't doing it that often, but I was still disapointed in him, and I told him that. So he put the half smoked cigarette out.

My grandpa died of cancer when I was in 4th grade. My grandma is now with a guy, who's she has been with for the past several years, and he has cancer. Kody's grandma had cancer and his mom is at risk for cancer. My grandpa and my grandma's boyfriend's cancer has nothing to do with smoking, but anyone should understand why I wouldn't want my boyfriend so smoke. He's told me that he's quit smoking before but started back up again because he wanted to. I'm scared he's going to start smoking regularly again. And I don't want to lose him to cancer one day. Not only did his grandma have cancer but a lot of her family has died of cancer as well. He said it was breast cancer, but it was cancer non the less.

I know that he could still get some other kind of cancer, that has nothing to do with smoking, but at least his risks are lowered if he doesn't smoke. My grandpa was my best friend and I lost him. Thinking about it brings tears to my eyes. I dont want to lose my best friend to cancer, again. Losing my grandpa was the hardest thing I ever had to go through and I dont want to do it again. I want to grow old with Kody and I want him to die an old man. My grandpa wasn't an old man, he was in his 50s.

Sorry For the Lack of Posting Lately

I've been really depressed lately and I haven't been in the mood to do almost anything. Even blog, which I love doing. I mean, I've been pretty down all summer, with not being able to find a job and whatnot, but I've been especially depressed this past week and a half. Its mostly because Kody and I have been fighting a lot this past week and a half.

Everything was good after we got back from visiting his parents a couple weeks ago, but last Tuesday we really got into it. I guess he has been stressed lately and was blaming me for everything saying that he wanted a companion and not a child. Basically saying that I was lazy because I didn't have a job and whatnot. He also felt like I didn't find him attractive anymore and that I hated touching him and kissing him. It made me feel like everything was falling apart and that we were soon going to break up. But we made up, like we always do, and he apologized and said he didnt mean all those things and he knows that I'm going through a slump right now and that everything will be fine once school starts in a month.

But I still couldn't help but feel depressed and feel like our relationship was falling apart and that I may be loosing him. Writing about it now makes me sad and want to tear up a little. He is everything to me, my best friend, my rock. I don't know what I would do without him. I've never felt this way about anyone else before, he is my first true love, my soul mate, the man I'm going to marry. But the both of us know we want to be together forever, so we do whatever we can to make things work and to get over our fights because we dont want to be like most couples who just give up.

Since then I've just been so down, and not really in the mood to do anything but its been getting better that last few days. Kody had a day off Tuesday so we rented a couple movies and got some popcorn and ice cream. Wednsday and Thursday we just stayed in and watched One Tree Hill. And yesterday we also went to the Goodwill and picked up a few books. I'm still on the same book I've been reading, but I'm trying to finish it soon. I think things are starting to go back to what they were when we first started dating. Everything was new and fun and its like the spark is starting to go out.

Last weekend was good though, I had fun, and it took my mind off everything, but once I got home that all I thought about again. Last Thursday and Friday we out to the house to see everyone that we haven't seen for two weeks. We drank and had a good time. And then Saturday it was my friend Porcha's birthday so we went out to the club and had a girls night, which was exactly what I needed and it was so much fun. I think this weekend will be fun too. Were gonna go out tonight, like we do every Friday, and see our friends and other than that I dont know what else we will do.

And I did get a new camera charger so hopefully soon I will be posting pictures of my jewlery on my Etsy shop. I can't wait to get it up and running. Kody has also been researching ways to make money and such, and school is starting soon. Everything is going to be just fine.

A Long Weekend Recap

Boyfriend and I had to go home Wednesday night because we had a funeral to go to on Thursday so I felt like I had a very loooong weekend. So after he got home from work we packed things up and were headed on the road, again. We had just gotten home last Sunday from being home for the 4th of July Weekend. This time around, though, we spent basically the whole time with Kody's family since we didn't see them for the 4th since they were out of the state. We didn't do much Wednsday since we got there kinda late. Kody's little sister wanted to go outside and play with sparkers and poppers that she had left over so we went out and did that. I wasn't really feeling it much because Kody's other sister was also there and I don't think she likes me very much, because she is always talking to Kody about me behind my back, so I feel uncomfortable when she is around.

Thursday I was suppose to go see my grandma before the funeral but we woke up really late and I didnt have time. I didnt get to see her last weekend, either, so I wanted to be sure I saw her while I was back in town. Pretty much the whole thing we did that day was go to the funera, which was Kody's uncle, who passed away from cancer. I didn't know him because Kody didn't see him much. I mean, I just met his dad, a year into our relationship. I almost cried, though, because my grandpa died of cancer when I was in 4th grade so it made me really think about that. Afterwards we went and had food with everyone who went to the funeral. I always like spending time with Kody's dad and his side of the family. I kept joking with Kody's brother, that he was the irriating brother I never had. And the highlight of the day was Kody's dad calling me his "finace." He's too funny. Last time we saw him he was calling me his "daughter in law." After that we went home and ate another full meal because Kody's mom was making steak for us and since steak is like a luxuray for us we couldn't pass it up!

Friday we went and saw my grandma. We hung out with her for a bit before she had to go over to her boyfriends. He has cancer so my grandma always goes over to make him meals and stuff. Before we left I wanted to show her the jewlery I had been making and she ended up buying a pair of earrings and a bracelet. I wasn't expecting that at all. I was just going to give her the earrings, since she liked them so much, but she ended up buying them and another thing. She gave me $20 for both. I'm using it to buy a new camera charger, which I found on Amazon for about $20 (including shipping), so I can take clear pictures of my jewlery and finally get them on my Etsy shop. After leaving my grandmas we went back to my house and my mom's boyfriend ordered some food and we hung out there for a couple hours. We would of headed back to Kody's but my grandma told us about the benifit they were having for her boyfriend so I wanted to stop there and say hi before we went back. That night we planned a night out at the drive in with Kody's mom, stepdad and little sister. Transformers was playing so I was really excited to finally see it. I like it until the end, I started to get bored. The story wasn't as good as the first and the action scenes lasted forever so I just got bored. But Shia looked hot!

Saturday we had to get up early because Kody worked at 11 and we had to make the 1 1/2 trip back home. As soon as we got back, though, I immediatly went to bed. That night we went out to our usually party house since we hadn't seen our friends for two weeks. There wasn't many people there, since everyone was recovering from the night before, but I still had fun.

Yesterday we didn't really do much. We woke up, went to eat at Jimmy Johns, and went to Sears so Kody could get a new pair of work pants. Then later that day he went to work for a few hours, I made another bracelet I decided I would surprise him with dinner. I made spagehtti, since I can't make much else. He was really surprised and happy that I did that for him. So we settled down to eat dinner and afterwards we watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, since he's never seen it before.

One of the best parts of the weekend was playing with this little cutie. I think I posted about him before. Its the puppy at Kody's parents house. He's around 2 months now. I love him!

Kody and I after the funeral

I thought I would let you all have a good laugh and post this picture of my grandma's cat. He's 16 years old now and his whole life he's been really really fluffy. He's gotten so old that he can't reach and clean himself so his fur was getting really ratty and he had clumps of hair everywhere. My grandma just got him shaved, and I have to say he looks really funny! :P

Well, I hope you all had a great weekend and have a great week ahead!

It Was All A Misunderstanding

First off, I would like to thank everyone who left comments on my last post. They all really made me feel so much better. With that said, I'll update you on that situation first.

I guess it was all just a big misunderstanding. The software my boyfriend "stole" of the internet, sold his information to all these porn sites and that's why he had a negative balance on his bank statement and was getting those emails. Two sites had charged his card when he checked the other morning, and then by the time he got back from the bank and was calling to close his card, there was a third charge. Thank God, he got the 50 some dollars back in his account that they had taken.

I was just thinking the worst because there have been multiple situations in the past where he has lied to me and kept things from me, so I figured this was one of those times. It took me awhile to trust him again after he cheated on me last summer, and after I was starting to trust him, he was emailing his ex girlfriend and when I asked him to stop, he continued to do it and kept it from me.

Now this wouldn't bother me, if the girl wouldn't constantly call talking bad about me, who she doesn't even know, and keep telling him that its her he should be with. This is what his ex girlfriend did all the time, when we first started dating. She would call all the time and then he wouldn't hear from her for a few months, and then it would start up all over again. Well, this past winter, I told him that it had been awhile since we heard from her, so he decided to email her, to see if she was doing alright. This is not the part that bothered me. I thought it was nice of him to do that, and I figured she was finally over him. I figured that, until she sent him a picture of herself, and was talking about how she broke up with her boyfriend and what not. Now, I am not stupid, I am a girl after all, and I know how other girls work. I told him that she still had feelings him, and that I felt uncomfortable with him talking to her. Now, I am a person that stays friends with all her exes because I think its good to stay friends, but none of my ex boyfriends have ever talked bad about Kody and none of them have told me over and over again that I should be with them instead of Kody. Kody has even met my first love, and they get along great.

So I told Kody I felt uncomfortable with him emailing her, so I kindly asked him to stop. It wasn't that I didn't trust him. I knew, and will always know, that he loves me and I am the one he wants to be with for the rest of his life. It was the fact that I didn't like this girl, because she constantly talked about me to him, when she doesn't know me, and she constantly threw it in his face that he shouldn't be with me, but her. I really don't appreciate that and for that reason I will never be nice to her. His other ex girlfriends seem like such sweet girls. I even met one last New Years, and she was so nice. I really want to meet his ex girlfriend, Jessica, because she seems like such a sweet girl, and she was the one that told him he needed to tell me he cheated on me. They still talk every now and then, and that doesn't bother me, because she respects our relationship. This other girl doesn't. I'm not going to respect someone, if they don't respect me.

So, I kindly asked him to stop, because it made me really uncomfortable, and I knew it wouldn't be long til she was throwing herself at him again, because I knew she still had feelings. I thought he stopped until I saw his email, because he left it logged into my phone. I asked him about it, and he said he felt bad so he continued to talk to her. I got upset because instead of feeling bad for lying to me and keeping this from me, he felt bad for her. She makes people feel bad for her, with her "I hate myself attitude," and whatnot. And after I confronted him about it, he told me he didn't want to talk to her anymore anyway because she was back to her old way, and she was talking about me, again, just like I told him she would. After she starting doing this again, he finally realized that I was right, and she did still have feelings for him. So he emailed her one last time to tell her that I was right about it all, and she wrote back and told him that I was right, and she did have feelings for him.

That was in the winter, and he hasn't talked to her since. I guess she's doing well, because his sister brought her up the other day while we were at his parents house. I'm glad she is doing well. I don't wish anything bad for her, because I'm not that type of person. I don't hate anyone. Not even that girl that seduced my boyfriend and caused him to cheat on me. I would just never try and be nice to them. I know Kody loves me and he only wants to be with me, and that we're going to get married. He's my first true love, and I can't imagine my life with anyone else. Thats why I forgave him for cheating on me. I know he made a mistake and it would never happen again. I still have dreams, all the time, though, of us breaking up, but I know it's not going to happen. But I guess, deep down somewhere its a huge fear of mine.

The whole cheating and ex girlfriend thing is why it upset me so much that I thought he was keeping this porn thing from me. I mean, I don't care if he watches porn, or looks at porn. I know he did last summer, when he didn't see me for a couple weeks, and I think he has recently. I just dont want him to hide it from me or lie to me, because it makes me feel if he lies about that, he could lie about anything. And I just found some naked girl pictures on his phone not too long ago, which he kept from me, and is why this upset me alot also.

But after confronting him, he assured me I have nothing to worry about.

Am I Overreacting?

The other day Boyfriend told me that he stole some computer software online for his business and today his bank account was negative 40 some dollars. Yesterday it was 50 some dollars so someone hacked his bank account and drained about 100 dollars because he kept his information on his computer.

Well today I went on his computer to download some music, and his email was open to an email saying his account was verified, and it was for a porn site. This porn site charged you almost 50 dollars to be a member, but it said he owed nothing, so I'm thinking I just caught him in a lie and he either didn't buy the computer software and he bought this porn instead, or he got both. Well not buy, but stole.

Not only did he become a member of this site, but he became a member of another porn site, which I believe is free. And not too long ago I found porn saved to his phone. Last summer I knew he looked at porn when he didn't see me for awhile, but we live together now, and have for almost a year. Now I just feel like I'm not good enough or something and I don't know what to do.

As soon as he gets home from work, I'm going to confront him about it. Do you think I'm overacting or do I have a right to be pissed?

What A Wonderful 4th of July Weekend

I had such a great 4th of July weekend! Boyfriend and I spent it with my family and we had such a good time.

Friday we left our apartment, after Kody got off work, and we on our way to my mom's house. We ate dinner with my mom and her boyfriend and then we went to go visit my grandparents and some of my other family at the campgrounds. We were going to go to the dive in to see Transformers, but it was way too packed. We hung out with my grandparents and some of my aunts, uncles, and cousins, for a couple hours, sitting around the campfire. It reminded me of how much fun I had as a kid when me and my sisters used to go camping with them.


Saturday we were suppose to go to my dad and step mom's 4th of July party but they had to cancel because my dad was sick for awhile and missed some days of work, so they didn't have the money to have the party. So we went and hung out at the campgrounds again. We were there almost all day, just hanging with my family and playing some games. We played a little Hillbilly Golf and my little sister and I won a few times and lost to my grandpa and uncle. Afterwards we went to bingo to see if we could win any money, but we lost. A single game was worth $80 and coverall was $440. We left the campgrounds to go watch the fireworks with my sister at the park. We were afraid of not getting a parking spot but we parked at the hospital, a few blocks away, and we were able to catch a shuttle bus that took us to the park, and back to our car after the fireworks were done. I love watching fireworks and I was sad I missed them last year, because of work, so I was excited to be able to see them this year. And it was the first fireworks show me and Kody have seen together. After the firworks we went back to my sisters and played a little beer pong with her and a few of her friends. All and all it was a great 4th of July and I loved spending it with Kody and my family.


Sunday we woke up early from my sisters and drove back to my mom's. Then we slept til about two. Before leaving to go back home we went to visit my dad and step mom since we haven't seen them since Easter. I'm really upset that they weren't able to have thier party because they haven't had a big party since I was in like 9th grade and it was so fun. They were going to have volleyball, slip and slides, fireworks, and a bonfire. They want to plan one for the end of the month and I told them we would be coming back August 1st for my family reunion so Dad said they might have it that day so we could be there. I really hope they do. And now were relaxing at home and watching tv :)

Things I Want Thursday...Part Two

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1. I want... to win the corn hole tourney that Boyfriend and I are going to participate in. The prize is a $100 Visa gift card and we could really use that money...to go shopping.

2. I want... to go shopping, which brings me back to number 1. Its been so long since I've been shopping for new clothes. The last thing I bought was a dress to wear for my birthday, back in January.

3. I want... to have a safe, and fun 4th of July. Boyfriend and I are going home tomorrow to visit my mom and her boyfriend and to party with my dad and step-mom at their huge 4th of July party on Saturday.

4. I want... to go swimming. I haven't worn my bathing suit all summer, and now summer is halfway over. I think its about time to put it on!

I don't really have much this week...but the main thing I want is that $100 gift card :)

Weekend Recap & New Jewlery

Friday was like any other Friday night for me. I went out to party, just like I do every Friday night. I stay in all week, so Friday is really the only time I get out. Our usual party place, where our friends Ryan, Tyler, and Kyle live, was changed this week to my friend Kelly's house. Ryan went home this weekend and they are redoing the floors, so that was probably the reason. It was a lot of fun, to go someplace new for once. Unfortunately, after we went back to the house, with Tyler, boyfriend noticed he didn't have is phone, so after looking around the house we had to walk back to Kelly's. And of course, it wasn't there, but Tyler found it at the house after all. And luckly, Tyler was nice enough to give us a ride back to our apartment so we didn't have to make that walk as well. After making some mac and cheese, we called it a night.

Saturday night, I layed around, like I usually do, because I was so exhausted from the night before. Even though I was so tired, I woke up early, after boyfriend went to work. But I ended up taking a three hour nap before he got home. And then another, two hour nap, with him, after he got home. The highlight of my night was watching Princess Protection Program on Disney channel since I missed the premiere the night before. I enjoyed the movie, it was really good! After the movie we went to McDonald's since neither of us had ate all day and decided to go over to Wal-Mart to see what kind of beads they had. I ended up getting a set, which makes 2 necklaces, a bracelet, and a set of earrings. I also got a box of random ocean colored beads.

Today was a pretty uneventful day. Boyfriend wanted to grill out over at the guy's house, but Tyler said he already ate. Kyle was ready to after Ryan got home, but by that time boyfriend was already making some fried chicken and french fries, which were so good! It would have been nice to enjoy a beautiful day, for once, but that food was good too! The badside to the day, was our sink got a leak because of the garbage disposal. Boyfriend was able to control it and mopped up the mess, but we need to call the maintenace guy. Today I also made a couple peices of jewlery from the set I bought at Wal-Mart. I made one of the necklaces and the pair of earrings. The necklace took forever, but I think it turned out pretty good. I have some pictures and I apologize if there is fuzziness. I'm working on borrowing a camera to take better pictures so I can upload them to Etsy.

Well, I hope you all had a wonderful weekend =)

Follow Fabulous Chic Designs!

If you aren't already, you should be following Fabulous Chic Designs! She is trying to get to 50 followers by September 1st, and if she does she is having a huge grab bag giveaway with a bunch of her jewelry. You don't want to miss out on this giveaway. She is an amazing jewelry designer!

If you decide to add her, which you should, make sure you leave a comment on her blog letting her know that I referred you to her. You get an entry for following and I get an entry for referring you to her.

Go to her blog, Fabulous Life on a Not so Fabulous Budget, for more information on this contest.

What are you waiting for!?

GO!!

It's Been Awhile, So Here's A Giveaway

It seems like forever since I posted about a giveaway so here one is! I found this giveaway through Amy Lynn at The Un-Wife Housewife Life. It looked like an amazing giveaway so I just had to check it out!

The giveaway is from Jules over at Chic & Pink, who has reached her 200th post! So to celebrate this 200th post landmark, she is giveaway a fabulous ensemble of summer goodies!

Here is what is included...

Pink & Green Tote Bag/Cooler
Pink Beach Towel
Green Polka Dot Ice Cream Bowl
Beauty Rush Strawberry Fizz Lipgloss
Bath & Body Works Butterfly Flower Body Lotion
OPI Nail Polish Set w/Shorts Story & Clear Top Coat
Yellow Bow Headband…very Gossip Girl!
Pink & Green Whale Luggage Tag
Striped Notepad and Pen Set

So if your interested, go on over to her site and check it out!

You know you want to =)

Take the ABC Authors Challenge

I heard of this challenge from Sara over at Dragonfly Book Reviews but the challenge originally comes from Meggin from Serendipity Book Reviews.

The object of the challenge is to read 26 books, with each book's author being each letter of the alphabet.

Here are the rules: (I just copy and pasted them from Meggin)

• You can only use an author's name once. For example, I could use Meg Cabot and read a book by her for either C or M, but you can't read a book by her for C AND M, even if they're different books.
• Set your own time limit. This is 26 different books, and since everyone reads at different rates, has to find books and authors for the challenge, etc., you set the due date to what's best for you. Mine will be by the December 11 (my birthday, woo!), or July 1 of 2010, but you set your own.
• Post about this challenge on your blog. That way, lots of people will know about it, and participate. I'd appreciate it TONS!
• Have fun! Make sure the book you're reading is something you enjoy!

Since I'm a pretty fast reader, I'm going to give myself 6 months to complete the challenge. So I will read 26 books by Christmas. I know I can get a lot read this summer, but after school starts, in a couple months, its going to be harder to have time to read.

But I figured since the book that I just started reading is an Ann Rule book, it was a sign that I should do this, since I've already started ;)

Things I Want Thursday

Sass at Are You Sassified started a weekly thing called "Things I Want Thursday." I found it by means of Nickie over at Learn to Fly. I figured I would do it since its something new and it's been awhile since I updated you all on whats going on with me.

So here the things I want...

1. I want...money. Boyfriend and I have been living paycheck to paycheck lately, and I wish we had money for extra things, like going out to eat or shopping. Its been awhile since we went out for lunch at Olive Garden. We don't even have money to go to the movies.
2. I want...to be able to go shopping. Its been awhile since I updated my closet or bought a new pair of shoes. But of course, this brings me back to number 1.
   
3. I want...to go see Transformers 2. It came out yesterday and I really want to go see it, but I don't know if I'll be able to. I may just have to wait until it comes out of DVD.
4. I want...to go home for the 4th of July. My dad and step-mom are having a huge 4th of July party with a cookout, volleyball, slip and slide races, and so much more, and I'm not sure if I'll be able to go. It all depends on if Boyfriend will be able to get off work. It really sucks because I want to go home and see my family and actually do something this year for the 4th since last year I was stuck working.
5. I want...to go to the Miley Cyrus concert. I love Miley and so does my best friend. We have been planning on going to her concert for a long time but it doesn't look like that is going to happen. When I had money to buy the ticket, she didn't because she wanted to pay off her bills first. And when we get the money, I'm sure all the tickets will be sold out, if they aren't already. This also happened when we wanted to go see Britney Spears.
6. I want...my internet connection to be less crappy. The internet at my apartment complex is free but the downside to that is that the connection sucks.
   

I think thats all I have for now...

In other news...I can't believe what has happend to Micheal Jackson. He has passed away at 50 years old. Thats so sad considering he was getting ready for a come back tour. I'm not a big fan of him but its still so sad to hear.

Made More Jewlery

I've made some more pieces of jewelry for my Etsy shop that I'd like to share with you guys. I apologize, again, for the crappy pictures. I need to borrow a friend's camera, because I lost the charger to mine...

The second bracelet I made

Another pair of earrings

Boyfriend actually made this pair of earrings

And I finally came up with a name for my Etsy shop. I had a little help from a girl on Twitter. The name for my shop is called Cherished Love. I set up my shop but I have yet to post my jewelry since I still need to take good pictures of what I've made.

I've Finally Started Making Jewlery

Friday afternoon boyfriend and I went to Micheal's to get beads and supplies to start making jewelry. We finally took it out last night and messed around with it. I ended up making two pairs of earrings and a bracelet. Kody, on the other hand, had a bit of trouble trying to come up with stuff to make. He was mostly the one that did all the difficult work, like bending the earpin to make a loop for my earrings and putting the clasp beads on my bracelet :P

So here are some pictures of what I created...sorry about the blurriness, these pictures were taken on my Blackberry, and I'm working on taking better pictures.




Again, sorry about the blurriness. When I put together my Etsy website, the pictures will look better and there will be more detailed pictures. I just want to know what you guys think. I'll probably make some more tonight.

I also need to come up with a name, any suggestions?

Weekend Recap & Another Birthday Party

Friday was my friend Wes' 20th birthday so they had a party for him over at the house. It was one of the most memorable parties boyfriend and I has ever attended because we carried the beer pong table for 13 straight games. We played for 3 1/2 hours! It was pretty much the only thing we did all night. We waited about an hour until we actually got to play, since the list was so long, but when we did finally get to play...wow! I think that may be a record in that house and that house has had a lot of parties with a lot of beer pong :P As much as I loved being part of the team that carried the table pretty much the entire night, I was sad I couldn't do much else. But, then again, I don't think anyone in our group can say that they have done that before :P I know me and boyfriend are a good team but we have never been that good!

Me and the Birthday Boy
(he was pretty drunk :P)

Friday was also payday for boyfriend so we finally had money to go buy some groceries. It had been about a month since we had been grocery shopping last. But luckily since its just the two of us we don't have to go very often. We usually go every two weeks, when he gets paid, but last pay day was pretty rough for us since rent was do and we were short on that. Thank goodness he got a pretty big check this week, so we put 300 in savings to save for rent, we got groceries, and we were even able to get some stuff for me to start my jewlery business. It was really hard picking out beads and stuff because I just didn't know where to start. Boyfriend gave me $60 to spend, and at first I went way over, so after putting some stuff back we settled on about $75 dollars worth of stuff, which half of that was just tools. I got some stuff to make a few pieces, so I'll be able to get more in a couple more weeks.

And I'm sure the next payday will be huge because boyfriend did great yesterday, earning over 100 dollars, and today he has done even earning closer to 200 dollars.

Yesterday I wasn't really up for doing much, because of the night before's antics. So I basically just laid around the house and talked on Twitter for most of the day. Boyfriend and I decided to not go out so when he got home we went to get some Jimmy Johns, which I had been craving, but unable to get, for a long time. After eating we pretty much just came home and went to bed.

I haven't even finished "Twilight" yet or started making jewlery. Thats on today's agenda, since the day is still young, along with doing the dishes and calling my dad for Father's Day. If I don't call him he'll get upset, since we don't get to see each other much. My parent's never got married and I never see my dad much, so we don't have a really close relationship. I haven't seen him since Easter, even though I went home not too long ago, I just didn't have time to see him.

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend and a great Father's Day =)

P.S. If you want to know more about the outfit I wore go over to my fashion blog where I did an outfit post on it.

The Minds of Billy Milligan

I finished reading The Minds of Billy Milligan last week. It was actually my second time reading this book. This is one of my very favorite books because it gives a great interpretation of what I want to do when I become a psychologist. My main goal is to work with multiple personalities, and this book is a wonderful story on that.

The Minds of Billy Milligan is a true story on a man, named William Milligan, who was arrested in the late 1970's for committing rape on three women at Ohio State University. It was later known that he suffered from multiple personalities and that one of his other personalities committed the rapes. Billy Milligan also made history because he was the first person to be found not guilty by reason of insanity for having mulitple personalities.

This is the true, very contraversial, story of Billy Milligan. This story is what made me want to be a clinical psychologist. It was the first psycological story I read. I read it a few years ago, but realized I really couldn't remember all of the details to the story so I decided to read it again. If you have ever read Sybil (or even seen the movie) you will love this story. It's the shocking, sad story of how this man ended up with 24 personalities. I highly recommend it to everyone. Once you start it, you wont be able to put it down.

Next on my reading list: Twilight...which I've already started and should be done with in a couple days.

My Other Blogs

Along with this blog I also have some other blogs I would like you all to check out. This is just my personal blog where I can talk about things going on in my life, but I wanted separate places where I can talk about other things that I enjoy..like TV, Celebs, and Fashion.

The first is my TV blog...I watch A LOT of TV and instead of writing reviews on this blog I decided to just make a different, separate blog. It's called Seriously!?. I watch many different TV shows so check it out to see if there are any that you watch too.

The second one is called Hollywood's Hijinks. I decided to create this blog because I'm always going on a ranting about the stupid things celebrities do or what the tabloids are saying. So, again, instead of ranting on about that stuff in this blog, I just decided to make a separate one for celebrity related stuff. Because sometimes I have a lot to say.

And then I have a fashion blog that I just created. It's called Fashionable Frenzie I love fashion so I thought "Why not?" I can put my spin on fashion with Polyvore and give my opinions on the fashion trends out there and what not.

When I get my jewlery business up and running I think I may open a new blog just for that.

So...please go check out my other blogs so I can get a bigger following for those as well =)

My Bestie's 21st Birthday Celebration--Part Two

Friday a party was thrown for my best friend, Jackie, who turned 21 yesterday. And yesterday was the second part of her birthday celebration.

For dinner the girls and I went to dinner at Golden Corral. I wasn't planning on going because I didn't have money but Jackie insisted on paying for me. I felt bad because it was her birthday but what could I do? I couldn't say 'no' because she said it wouldn't be the same without me. But I was glad that I went because I love spending time with just my girlfriends and we had such a good time. We got a few stares from people because we were constantly laughing so loud.

After dinner we changed into our other dresses and took a bunch of pictures. We were then ready to hit the club. We went to the same place we went for my 21st birthday because every Saturday they have dollar drink nights. It was so much fun.

Jackie's first legal drink

Dakota, Porcha, Jackie, and I

After the club closed we headed over to my old house to party some more with the rest of our friends. It was fun up until Dakota's boyfriend decided he wanted to fight with my boyfriend over something stupid. We were all playing beer pong and I guess Kody said something about him being stupid and it really made him mad. I didn't hear what he said, though. It was such a ridiculous fight because they are both good friends and it was stupid for them to be fighting. Thank goodness they made up quickly.

Then for some reason, Kody decided he would start fighting with me. I know it was not really him, though. When he gets blackout drunk it's like he has an alter personality that comes out and is a real big jerk. We get home and I try and help him because it looks like he is going to get sick, and all he wants to do is pick a fight with me. But I love him dearly and I know that isn't really him talking so even though it upsets me at the time, I let it go. I really don't know how he got that drunk because when I was leaving the club I called him, and he sounded fine to me. He didn't even sound drunk at all. And he said he had been careful all night and that he had been watching how much he drank. Oh, well. Its done and over with and I'm over it. I know he was really trying not to get that way but sometimes it happens unexpectantly.

Then this morning he had to go into work for THREE HOURS when he isn't even suppose to go in on Sunday's anymore. He shouldn't even have drove because he woke up and was still drunk, but he couldn't get ahold of anyone to call in. I guess the only thing he did was sit in the back room and read his book the whole time. Which was probably best. I don't even know why they needed him in the first place because they had three other people opening and every other person in his department was schedualed for that day. Oh well...

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend =)

And for more of the outfit I wore visit my fashion blog Fashionable Frenzie!

Wedding Bells

No, I am not engaged...yet :P But I know who I am going to marry and I know that one day it will happen. In the meantime, I've already started looking at wedding stuff :P I thought it would be weird at first but I read a lot of blogs where other women have started planning their weddings before they actually got engaged. I just can't wait to plan my wedding so why not start now? If I start now, then maybe I wont need as much time to do it when then time does come :P

So here are some pictures of dresses that I found on The Knot and really liked. What I love is that there are so many really cute dresses and they are marked as "very affordable." That means they are $600 dollars or less. I don't plan on spending a lot on my dress so that is perfect for me. I don't need anything too fancy, that stands up on it's own, or has a super long train. Just something simple and cute.










Which one is your favorite out of these?

My favorites are the second one and the last one.

My Bestie Has Turned 21 =)

I'm so excited that my best friend, Jackie, has finally turned 21. She no longer has to rely on me or anyone else to buy her alcohol! Last night we had a party for her over at my old house and it was so much fun. Jackie didn't know if she would end up having a good time because she thinks the guys that live there now don't really like her but I told her that she was going to have a blast because I was going to be there. If one of us isn't there we usually don't have the best time because there aren't many girls that hang out with our group so there aren't many girls that are over there on a regular basis and even when Dakota is there, she is the one to always get really drunk and she mostly is with the guys anyway (She is way more like a dude than she is a girl :P) But anyway, Jackie ended up having a really fun time, and the boys let her listen to what music she wanted, because they usually don't. And our other friends Porcha and Asia were also there, who are Jackie's new roommates. I'm really glad she had a good time because it was her 21st birthday so she had to have a good time :P

Jackie, the birthday girl

The birthday girl and I

Porcha, Dakota, me, and Jackie

Tonight we are all going out to dinner and then out to the club. I wasn't planning on going out to dinner with the group because I don't have any money to each but Jackie insisted that I go and she would pay. I really don't want her to because it is HER birthday but she insisted and told me that it was her birthday dinner and it wouldn't be the same without me so, I said ok, because I didn't want to offend her or make her upset on her birthday.

Then for the club were going to the same place we went for my birthday because every Saturday they have dollar drink night. I hate spending a fortune on drinks when we go out so we always go out with there are specials.

I also wanted to announce that I'm going to start making my own jewelry and sell it on Etsy. I wanted to blog about this earlier in the week but the power cord to my boyfriend's computer is no longer fixable so we have to wait until we have money to buy a new battery. Luckly, my friends John and Jeremy are coming up on Wednesday and they have my laptop so they are bringing that with them. They were suppose to come up this weekend for Jackie's birthday but were unable to.

Anyway, my boyfriend was talking about how he wanted to sell this cloth that one of his coworkers, at Sears, is selling. Its this amazing cloth (which goes by that name, or something like it) and Kody was able to clean his entire car with it and it looked like he had just gotten back from the car wash. All he did was take the cloth to it and it cleaned up all the water spots that were on the car. I thought he did go to the car wash but he said he didn't. So he want's to start selling that around at all the car businesses in town. It is originally to be used around the house but apparantly it can be used for other things as well.

While he was getting excited about selling this cloth, I was wondering what I could do to rake in some money. It doesn't look like I'm going to be able to find a job anytime soon because my car still needs fixed and then it needs tags and insurance, and by the time that happens our phones will probably be shut off because we haven't had the money to pay them in a couple months. So I got to thinking, and I thought of all the girls around the blogisphere that sell their homemade jewlery on Etsy so I thought, I should do that to. And Kody said he used to make and sell jewery with his brother, when they were younger and needed money, so he said they he would help me. We wen't to Micheal's just to get an idea of what kind of beads and stuff they had, so when Kody get's paid next week, were going to go back and buy some stuff. Hopefully we will have the money to do so, because I'm really excited to start this and start raking in some money myself.

So what do ya guys think? Do you think I could do it?

Polyvore ♥

I've been following Leetid and her blog Life of Leetid and she always has these sets she has made on Polyvore. I love all the sets she makes, they are so cute, so I decide to start making some sets of my own. I love fashion and I love finding really cute sets to wear out and what not.

So here is the first set I made. Just an outfit to wear out to the club. I love pink and black together.

Club Night- Black/Pink by xoxomilliexoxo featuring Forever21 accessories

What do ya think?

And for more of my Polyvore creations visit my fashion blog...Fashionable Frenzie

Nice Little Sunday Afternoon

I just love spending Sunday afternoons with Boyfriend. He now has every Sunday off work so we will have more great Sunday afternoons to spend together.

Kody's grandma was nice enough to send up some money, because we needed more to live on, and I didn't want to ask my mom for more than she was already giving us. So we were happy that we were able to go see UP after all. We were sad that we didn't have enough money to go this week.

First we went and got his his hair cut. I love his long shaggy hair, but it was getting way too long and it was starting to look like a mullet, so we got it cut. I was scared they would cut it too short, but they did good. It's still long and shaggy, but its not in his eyes, which was the point of getting it cut. After getting it cut we decided to walk around the mall, but we got into a little disagreement and had to leave and go out to the car to talk it out. And we made up, pretty quickly, just like we normally do. We just had a little disagreement, it was nothing too serious. I'm just glad we got it all worked out. So after our little misunderstanding we just decided to go to McDonalds and get some ice cream because we had half an hour until the movie started.

But then it was finally time to go see UP and I was so excited because I've been wanting to see this movie since I saw the preview at the Hannah Montana movie. It just looked so funny and cute, I couldn't wait to see it. And it defiantly exceeded my expectations. It was one of the cutest movies I've ever seen. I loved it. I highly recommend it to everyone of all ages. And after the movie we went to get ice cream from Wal Mart because I really wanted sprinkles on it, and Mcdonalds doesn't have sprinkles for their ice cream.

And now I'm just sitting at home, waiting for the series premier of Kendra on E! I love the Girls Next Door and Kendra is my favorite, so I'm so excited that she is getting her own show since she found love and is now getting married. I'm so happy and excited for her. It was defianatly the time for her to move out of the mansion and to experience life as she should. She has never been on her own before, so there is no better time than now for her to experience the great things in life. Like cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, and everything else. I love Kendra and I think she is so funny so I know I'm gonna love her new show.

Well, I hope everyone had a great weekend =)

Things Are Starting to Look Up

If you have been reading my blog, and you read my post that I added a couple days ago, you'll know that boyfriend and I have been having some financial problems. Well, I thought everything would be fine, or we would at least be able to make rent and buy a few groceries, but that wasn't the case.

Kody got his check last night and it turned out we were a hundred dollars short for rent. My heart dropped when we found out. All I could do was cry, because he works so hard at work, and I just felt terrible. He just found out that his commission was lowered from 9% to 4%, when the other departments are still at 9%. And it turns out he got a couple orders returned on him so that was why his check was lower than it was suppose to be.

We had no choice but to ask someone for help. We both hate asking for help, but we had to put our pride aside and just do it, because we really had no other choice. So, I called up my mom this morning and I told her what was up and that we needed money, so she was willing to wire us some money to pay the rest of rent. I feel so grateful to her, and I am so appreciative that she let us borrow the money to get by. She knows how much I hate asking for help, and I've never asked her for money, during the three years I've been on my own. I'm just so glad she let us borrow the money. And as soon as we get the money to pay her back, that is what we are doing.

We also got some more good news today! Kody and I have been trying to sell some books on Amazon and we got our first buyer today! He bought my old physics book from last year for abotu $30 bucks. Unfortunatly, it went to Kody's old account which has a negative balance because the check we gave to Meijer two weeks ago went through and it went over .11 in the account. After we deposit a couple more dollars into that account, we will no longer have that to worry about. I was kind of disapointed that we wouldn't have that extra money but at least we won't have to pay that money back later and we wont get another fee added on.

Despite the fact that we had to ask my mom to help us pay for rent, I'm so happy, and I hope that things continue to get better. I try not to let the worrying overcome me, but last night it did. Usually Kody is the one to do all the worrying, but for once it was me. But he reminded me, and himself, that it's not the end of the world and we aren't going to roll over and die because of this one thing. The summer is going to be hard, but as soon as school starts and we get our refund checks we'll have some money to help us pay for rent and credit cards. We may not have any money to go out tonight, but at least we have a roof over our heads and food on the table. We also have each other, and those are the most important things right now.

Jessica
xoxo

Money Problems Suck!

So, my boyfriend and I have been having a lot of money problems lately. Well it's been for awhile now. We just moved into a new apartment, which I love so much, and it looks like we may have to move out because we just can't afford it. Rent is 600 a month and Kody's paid last month's rent by himself and he is going to have to pay this upcoming month's rent himself. I keep telling him that it's not going to be this way for long, just the summer, because after school starts we will both get our refund checks from school. He will have to use his to pay off his credit card but I can use mine for my part of rent. Speaking of his credit card, that's one reason we may have to move again. The credit card company keeps calling him, and this time they actually have a real person calling and not a reminder recording message telling him he needs to pay up. They have a real person who called 10 times a day and sometimes like 15 minutes after another. He is so worried they will cancel his card and that is the only way he can get his credit up, but right now its making his credit go down. And my credit is already messed up with the medical bills I need to pay from last year. Our phones are close to being shut off because we can't afford to pay for them (stupid addicting Blackberrys!) and even if I did find a job I wouldn't have a way there because Kody needs to fix the power steering pump so I can actually drive it. He also owes the gas company like $400 from when we lived at the house. I just don't know what to do anymore and he is so worried about it I just don't know how to make him feel better. He tells me sometimes he feels so alone sometimes and feels like he is the only one worrying about this. I worry about it, I just don't let it overcome me. I just don't know what to do. Just a while ago he was looking for a cheaper apartment but then we need to know if they have any apartments open and then we need to find someone to take over this apartment and we would have to pay a $50 fee to get out of our lease. I just don't know what to do....

A Girls Night and Upcoming Concert

Last night I got together with my besties and we had a little girls night. It was nice because I haven't really hung out with them much lately. I'm usually just sitting at home with boyfriend everynight and the only time I see them is on the weekends when we all go to the house to drink. But last night was ladies night at one of the local bar/club. Ladies got $5 for walking through the door, so that was good considering I hate going to clubs or bars unless its dollar drink night because I'm poor and don't want to spent that much money on drinks. So Jackie and I sat at her house drinking some Jooses while we waited for Dakota to get there. After taking some pictures we finally left a little before midnight. I had such a fun time just dancing and hanging out with my girls. Jackie's 21'st is coming up soon so were gonna do it again soon =)

Jackie, Dakota, and I

In other news: MILEY CYRUS IS GOING ON TOUR THIS FALL!!!! Were so excited. Jackie and I have planned on going for awhile now. We have just been waiting for her to announce her tour. Now we have to wait until tickets go on sale Monday. We've planned to go on October 7th, in Columbus, Ohio. I have to ask my mom for the money since I'm poor and have no job. Besides, she never got me a birthday present, so I'll just put it that way for her. My sister, Ashlee also planned on going with us, and that's the day after her birthday, so she asked her mom to get her a ticket for her birthday. Dakota will also probably go, since she just said a couple weeks ago that we all should go to a concert this time (her and Jackie saw Hanson, when they were on tour.) I'm so beyond excited!!! I've only ever been to one concert before (All-American Rejects) but I know this will be the best concert we've ever been to!

Anyway, did I say I was excited =)

Let's Play Tagged

So I was tagged by Cherry Diva to play this little game....

Here are the rules:

1) Write a post naming six un/important things that make you happy
2) Link to the person who tagged you and then tag 6 other people to participate
3) Make sure to let the people you tagged know that you tagged them
4) If you don't feel like posting something or you don't have time you can just leave a comment

So, here are 6 un/important things that make me happy =)

#1 SHOES

I love shoes whether or not they are flip flops or heels. I have a pair of flip flops in like every color that I wear the most of and Old Navy flip flops are my favorite. I also own a ton of heels. I have multiple ones in the same color. I have a weak spot for a good priced pair of heels so I'm always looking for a pair of shoes for a really cheap price.

#2 MONKEYS

I'm pretty much obsessed with monkeys. I have a pretty nice collection of stuffed monkeys. My favorties are the monkey I made a few years ago at Build-A-Bear with a purple fairy dress (Her name is Maple), the purple monkey I got my senior year of high school from all the underclassman woodwind section in band at senior night, and the pink monkey I got my freshman year of college from my secret Valentine. Although, I love all my monkeys because they are all so darn cute =)

#3 THE COLOR PINK

Pink is definatly my favorite color and if it comes in pink, I mostly likely have it. I'm totally obsessed with the color. Like I said, I'm a big girly girl and pink is definatly a girly girl color. Some things I have that are pink are my Blackberry, my digital camera, my toothbrush, my hair dryer, a couple pairs of heels, tons of nail polish, my favorite blanket, my body pillow, my dresser, shoe holder, laundry basket, and a couple handbags. There are probably many other things but I have so much pink crap I can't think of if all ;)

#4 TELEVISION

I'm not gonna lie...I watch way to much television. I'm always watching Disney Channel because I love Hannah Montana and most of the other shows they have on there. I love the documentaries on A&E and some of the reality shows on E! TLC and VH1. I also like the documentaries they have on E!. My favorite shows are One Tree Hill, Grey's Anatomy, and Lost.

#5 BLACKBERRY

I've only had my Blackberry for a few months but I love it! It's got everything I need in one. It's a phone, computer, digital camera, and MP3 player all in one! Sure its a little scratched up and the screen is cracked in a couple places, but its one amazing phone! And of course I had to get it in pink ;) I love it that when I leave the house and the comfort of my computer I can still get onto Twitter, Facebook, and Blogger of course! Which are three other things that make me happy but I can only list 6...

And the finale thing that makes me happy...

#6 MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY

I don't know where I would be without my friends and family and my boyfriend. I am who I am because of them and they are the reason I'm here. My family is so supportive of the things I do and my friends are the best friends a girl can have. I know that they will always be there for me. And my boyfriend is my true love and I know he is my soul mate. I feel so lucky to have these people in my life =)

So there you have it...6 un/important things that make me happy...

The 6 blogs I'll tag will be...

1. Nic at Pinknic's Planet
2. Christa at According to Christa
3. Katelin at Pretty Sandy Feet
4. Kristin at The Faithful Fashionista
5. Mel at ChinkyMel's Corner
6. The New Black

Enjoy =)

My Very Long Weekend Recap

Wow, its June 1st already! Where did the time go??

So anyway, this weekend the boyfriend and I took a trip back home because it was his brothers graduation. Little did we know, we were going to be busier than we thought...

Wednesday:

Boyfriend and I headed towards home at about 6 pm. He didn't get home from work til 5:30. Our first stop was his parent's house, where we stayed the night. Unfortunately, there was no bed for use to sleep on so we had to sleep on the couch. We tried sleeping on the same couch, but in the middle of the night he got up and moved to the other couch, that was in the living room. We had to get up early because we found out that his grandma was getting surgery, to remove the cancer from her lungs, the next morning. I also got to play with the new puppies they had and the horses, which was fun.

Trying to feed Jake

Isn't he cute?

Thursday:

We got up early to go to the hospital while Boyfriends grandma got her surgery. We were there pretty much all day long. We waited around for hours waiting for her to finish up. When they were done, however, the doctor came out and said that she did really well and that they managed to get all of the cancer that was on her lung. She was really lucky because only 20% of lung cancer patients are able to get their cancer detected early enough that they can get rid of it as fast as she did. The reason she did get it detected so early was because her sister made her promise to go to the doctor because of her bronchitis and because of that they did an x ray and thats how they found the tumor on her lung. But now she is cancer free and she didn't even have to have chemo or radiation. God answered our prayers and we thank him for her bronchitis that made the doctor find the cancer on her lungs. They were only allowing 2 people at a time to go in a see her and she had a lot of family to go in and see her because practially her whole family was there at the hospital waiting all day. Boyfriend went in but instantly came back out because she was sleeping from all the drugs she was on.

After the hospital Boyfriend and I went back to my house because my best friend was bringing her baby over so I could meet her. She was born a month ago and it was my first time meeting her. I was so excited! She was even cuter then she was in pictures. As soon as she showed up she was all bright eyed. It made me really want a baby girl but I know that is not going to happen for a few more years. I need to finish college and boyfriend and I have to get married first. And none of that is going to happen for at least a few years. But I was really excited to get to see baby Kiera Marrisa. She is the closest I have to a neice because I want to be the first of my sisters to get married and have kids since I'm the oldest :P

Baby Kiera and I

Friday:

We got up again kinda early, not as early as the day before, but early than usual. We planned on going to the pool but realized we really didn't have time to go. The first thing we did was go visit the kids I used to babysit. I haven't seen them in like two years and I thought it was a good time to go visit them. The little boy, Justin, who I babysat, was being a little ornery. He was trying to hide from me but eventually I caught him. I stayed and visited with them for a little while and then Boyfriend got back on the road to the next thing we had planned for the day.

After my visit with the former kids I babysat we went to this discount store to look at there discounted books. The place was called "Ollie's." It was sort of like a Big Lots. My mom bought a bunch of books there for cheap so I wanted to go check it out. I bought two books: "Too Late to Say Goodbye" by Ann Rule, a true story of murder and betrayal, a hardback for 3.99 and "In The Shadow of the Arch" by Robert J. Randisi, a murder myster, a softcover for .99. Even though I have so many books to read and sometimes I get on a kick where I don't feel like reading, I thought these books looked really good, so I just had to buy them because they were such good deals. Boyfriend also bought 3 hardcover copies, of the final book in Stephan Kings "Dark Tower" series, for 3.99 each. He plans on keeping one to read and selling the other two on ebay for about twenty bucks. Sounds like a good idea to me :P After Ollie's we went and looked around Big Lots, which was right next door. We mostly got some junk food and I got a new bottle of white fingernail polish, since I seemed to have lost my other bottle that I had. After Big Lots we went a couple stores down to go say 'hello' to my mother who was working at Dollar General.

After doing a little discount shopping we went to go see Boyfriend's grandma again in the hospital. We would of went before but quiet hours were from 2 to 4 and we just wouldn't of made it in time. She was looking pretty good, considering she just got some major surgery done. They still didn't give her, her teeth back and expected her to eat this chicken. She ended up giving her meal to boyfriend because she couldn't eat it without teeth. We stayed for a bit and then headed back toward my house because we had to go to my bestie's house to go pick up tickets for her graduation that was that night (which was another unexpected event we decided to go to)

Before picking up the graduation tickets we went and saw my grandma and her boyfriend because my grandma definatly would have got upset if I didn't go visit her. Also her boyfriend has cancer so I had to go visit him and give him a 'Get Well' card that I got for him. Its a terrible thing that he also has cancer, but he isn't as lucky as boyfriends grandma. He is losing lots of weight and the chemo is really wearing him out. I just feel really bad for my grandma because we lost my grandpa to cancer and I just hate seeing her go through it all over again.

So that night was my bestie's high school graduation. She went to mine when I graduated so I really wanted to go to her's and see her graduate. We haven't talked as much lately but she is still my best friend and I love her like a sister. It was suppose to start at 9:15 pm (an hour an 15 minutes past the usual time) because the boys basketball team went to finals and they had a game that day. But it didn't start at 9:15...it started like half an hour late. But it did eventually start. And I'm so proud of my bestie. She was pregnant all through her senior year and she still managed to get honorable mention. I was also really excited to see my friend Zack, who also graduated.

Chelsey, Kiera, and I

Zack and I

Saturday:

We had to get up early again because my grandma was in the Memorial Day parade and I told her I would go. It started at 10:45 am. and unfortunatly we missed the parade part. But we didn't miss much of the actual Memorial Day presentation at the veteran's park. Our town recently built an army veteran's park and moved this veteren's statue there that was originally at our library. It was the 100th anniverary of the statue so they had a special ceremony. They had a soldier dressed up in exact or exact replicas of the uniforms worn for ever major war that the United States has been in. They each did a walk around the grass and posed for news cameras, and they each shot of thier guns. Afterwards everyone got a meal ticket to go get a free mean at the local VFW. Boyfriend and I went with my grandma and we all ate lunch together. It was a good start to the afternoon, but unfortunatly I got sunburnt after being out in the sun for only about an hour and a half.

After eating lunch with my grandma we headed off to boyfriend's brother's graduation party. It was fun hanging out with his dad and his step mom's family. Like me, he doesn't get to see his dad much but when we do go see him its always a good time. And for the first time, his dad was calling me his 'future daughter-in-law' and his step mom was humming the wedding song while holding my left hand that has my promise ring on it. I would expect things like this from Kody's grandma and grandpa on his mom's side, but I did not expect this from his dad and step mom. But it was nice because now I finally feel like they except me as somone that is more than just a girlfriend. His little sister even asked me if we were engaged :P

We left the graduation party a little early so we could go see Boyfriend's grandma in the hospital. She looked even better than she did the day before. And she had her teeth so she was able to eat her meal :P We stayed and visited with her for a while before heading over to Boyfriend's brothers house for the after party. It was fun hanging out with my future brother-in-laws. I haven't got to spend as much time with them than I have with everyone else in his family. I really didn't want to spend the night there because I get unconfortable with staying at places that is not my house so Boyfriend said he would quit drinking for a couple hours so we would be able to drive home, even though he really wanted to stay longer so he could hang out with his brothers longer.

Sunday:

We stayed in bed a little longer than we did the past few days. But we still got up earlier than we usually do. We probably should have gotten up earlier because Boyfriend realized that quiet hours at the hospital were from 2 to 4 and it was already 1:21 so we had to rush to get to the hospital before 2 so we could say goodbye to his grandma before we left. We got there and she keeps looking better and better. They even took her IV out so I guess that means they are letting her out soon. We only had five minutes to stay but that was all the time we needed to say goodbye and give her a hug.

After the hosptial we went back to Boyfriend's house to see if his mom could make us some lunch before we got on the road, since we didn't have time before we left my house. She wasn't there because her and his step dad were tearing up this pool that they recently bought from this lady, but they were buying some coney dogs on the way home so they bought us each one, and they were delicious :P I got to play with the puppy one last time (they gave the girl puppy away to boyfriend's uncle and they kept the boy puppy) before we left.

We then got on the road and headed back to our apartment. We could of stayed a couple days longer if it wasn't for the meeting at work Boyfriend had to go to from 6-9, because he is off Monday and Tuesday. I was excited to get home though because my friend Jackie was coming over to watch the Hills finale and the MTV movie awards.

Except she didn't come over. I even cleaned the living room for when they came over but at 8:30 she txts me and asks me where I'm at. I thought they were coming over to my place but she said no. So at this point I'm kind of upset so I just decide to stay home and not go over there because I'm tired of making plans with them and they plan never go through. Oh well...whatever


I had a pretty long weekend and I had a lot going on. We were going home because of his brother's graduation and realized there was more going on then we thought, with his grandmas surgery and my bestie's graduation. But it was a pretty good weekend and I'm glad we got to have a little vacation away from work and the big city =)

I'll leave you with a couple funny pictures I took at the hospital ;P

Big, ugly apple in the lobby...

For when you really have to go :P

I hope you all have a good week!